I AM MOVING!!!

hello guys...
i've been so quiet lately...
it's not like i m mia, but i just can't open blogger dashboard!
so, i said to myself - why don't i create a new blog?
so here's my new blog:

http://lifeisfunnythatway.wordpress.com/

The Return

I felt strange going back to school after my long sick leave. It’s kind of feels like de ja’ vu, where I feel like I’ve done that task, or this task. Wait a minute, I did! Everything, well, almost everything feels the same, but not the same anymore. I got new classmates and some new lecturers also, thank God. It’s hard explaining to the lecturer why I had to start all over again.

Do I regret coming back? Sometimes I do, when everything feels so overwhelming, but then, what am I going to do with my life if I don’t resume my training? Sometimes, when I’m overwhelmed, I feel like I am trapped in this profession. It’s like a princess bound by a spell. I think I’ve been reading too much fairy tales! I should grow up…thoughts keep rushing through my head. Am I going to be a good teacher? Or will I settle being mediocre? I don’t have an answer for that. All I could do is pray that I could finish my teacher training. That is what I pray for each time.

Life back in campus is more hectic than I remember. The lecturers seem to demand more from us the trainees. I know that there are reasons for this, but come on, we are human beings, not robots. Rushing to get from one place to another, eating on the run… this is taxing on my soul. I don’t have time anymore to write on my blogs. At night, I fell into bed, tired to the bones. I know that I had to manage my time wisely, but sometimes I feel like I am juggling elephants, which I know is impossible. I hope that I could find a middle ground – where I could do my academic tasks and still could be involved in the co-curriculum. Insya Allah, God willing, I should be able to.